Sabtu kali ini sendu. Aku lebih memilih untuk duduk sendiri di coffee shop ini. Kulihat beberapa pasang kekasih yang berteduh diluar. Ini rutinitasku. Menikmati akhir pekan ditemani secangkir caramel macchiato hangat. Hujan yang tak kunjung henti membuatku enggan untuk bergeser sedikitpun dari tempat dudukku. Tak banyak yang kulakukan. Hanya memandang jalanan, membiarkan lamunanku bertualang keluar. Ah andai saja Mika masih hidup. Ia pasti akan menemaniku disini. Walaupun dia juga akan mencelotehiku tentang banyaknya kopi yang sudah aku minum hari ini. Mika tidak suka kopi.
"Tari?" ucap suara dibelakangku. Cukup membuatku tersentak dan memaksa lamunanku untuk kembali menyatu dengan alam sadarku. Itu suara Langit, kawanku. Suatu kebetulan melihatnya disini. Sudah 3 tahun aku tidak bertemu dengannya.
"Eh, Langit? Hey! It's been a long time!" Ujarku seraya menjabat tangannya. Sudut mataku menangkap pria berkacamata berambut sebahu yang bersamanya. Mirip Mika, tapi kulitnya lebih gelap.
Rupanya Langit dan kawan-kawannya adalah band yang perform malam ini. Mataku tak lepas dari Sena. Ya, pria yang mencuri perhatianku itu namanya Sena. kudengar Langit memanggil namanya sebelum mereka bersiap untuk perform. Tidak ada perkenalan formal antara aku dan kawannya Langit karena mereka sedang diburu waktu.
Aku menyesap kopiku yang tinggal sedikit. Mengalihkan pandanganku kembali ke jalan. Hujannya sudah reda. Aku bersiap pulang, menghindari hujan yang bisa datang lagi kapan saja.
"Sir, I'm a bit nerveous 'bout being here today
still not real sure what i'm going to say"
Sontak aku menoleh kearah Langit dan kawan-kawannya. Sena. Dia yang ada dibalik microphone.
"so bare with me please if I take up too much of your time
see in this box is a ring for your oldest"
Suaranya membuatku terpana. Aku pun akhirnya kembali duduk dan pindah posisi hanya untuk melihat Sena lebih jelas. Aku lihat ia menatapku dan senyuman tipis tersungging di bibirnya. Jantungku mencelos.
Apa kamu pernah dengar istilah cinta pada pandangan pertama? Apa itu juga bisa berlaku untuk cinta pada pendengaran pertama? Terdengar konyol kah?
Aku mengurungkan niatku untuk pulang. Hanya agar dapat mendengar suara itu. Tanpa sadar aku tersenyum dan jantungku berdegup kencang. Aku menikmati lagu demi lagu yang mereka mainkan. Tidak kusangka aku bisa merasakan kupu-kupu terbang diperutku. Ini menyenangkan. Malam makin larut dan mataku masih tak dapat terlepas dari Sena. Sesekali aku mengalihkan pandangan saat Sena melihat kearahku. Langit dan bandnya menutup performance malam itu dengan lagu Aerosmith - I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing diiringi applause dari penonton.
"Kalian keren mainnya!" Pujiku yang dibalas dengan ucapan terima kasih dari mereka setelah kembali ke meja didekatku. Kulihat Sena bergegas untuk pulang disaat Langit dan kawannya yang lain duduk dan memesan kopi. Agak kecewa memang, karena tujuanku menunggu adalah Sena.
Kuharap aku bisa bertemu dengannya lagi. Aku ingin mendengar suaranya lebih banyak lagi, lebih lama lagi. Suara yang membuatku lupa akan Mika.
mereka bilang rasa ini salah
mereka bilang aku bebal
mereka bilang kamu bodoh
kamu bilang rasa ini membebanimu
kamu bilang aku berhak bahagia
kamu bilang kamu sudah menghapusku
aku bilang rasa ini yang paling nyata
aku bilang aku tidak ingin menjadi benar
aku bilang kamu ..... ah sudahlah
beberapa hari yang lalu salah seorang rekan kerjaku bertanya padaku, "kamu lebih baik dicintai atau disayangi?" tanpa berpikir panjang aku pun langsung menjawab "aku lebih baik disayangi."
dalam hal asmara, menurutku rasa terdalam yang pernah seseorang alami adalah rasa sayang. bukan cinta. kata "aku sangat mencintaimu" terdengar gombal ditelingaku tetapi tidak dengan kata "aku sangat menyayangimu", itu justru terdengar manis.
ada beberapa pepatah yang menurutku lucu, "cinta itu buta." dan "kalau sudah cinta, kotoran kucing pun rasa cokelat." haha! jangan mau dibutakan oleh cinta. apalagi dibodohi. selamanya kotoran kucing akan tetap menjadi kotoran. cinta tidak mampu membuatmu berpikir logis.
beberapa orang disekitarku mengalami rasa yang aku yakin dapat mendeskripsikan cinta buta. aku kenal baik dengan orang yang lantas berpikir untuk mengakhiri hidupnya saat putus cinta. aku juga kenal dengan orang yang berubah "jahat" setelah disakiti cinta.
sungguh sangat disayangkan jika cinta membuatmu membenci saat ia tidak lagi berpihak denganmu.
bagaimana denganmu?
kamu lebih baik dicintai atau disayangi?
im getting bored (again) so I decided to post something (again, yea its my 2nd post for today). now im gonna post about Long Distance Relationship. that's aint a new thing in everyone love life. maybe everyone have to tried LDR.
Long distance relationship, that sounds hard but its worth to try. Well, its love. Ok,u can choose someone u want to love but u also cant help it if u fall in love with someone out there,livin in the different countries. Buuuuuttt, we’re livin in a modern life now.n thnx God for tht.Now u can use alotta things jst to get to them,such as Twitter, Ym, MSN, FB, nethin u want jst to keep contact with the person u love. Sounds cool, right? Well,it is cool xD-Emily Jones (my friend from NZ)-
thats what my friend said about LDR thingy. agree? yea, im totally agree! that doesnt mean you're loser if you're on this relationship.
so, do you d a r e to be in a Long Distance Relationship? :p
awh cme on,dude.its not tht i cnt hve a real gf hre.smetms smeone out thre n livin far awy frm me,attrack me.n its not bot physical interactions.in the end its all bot heart n love n thts all tht matters.u shud try to b open-minded n blieve tht nothin is impossible-Ryan Reeves (my friend from NZ)-
dont choose to be in this relationship if you:
1. cant spare your time although just for one hour for your bf/gf to talk. moreover if you 're be able to not talk to her/him for days! geez thats terrible. you should TALK although you're terribly busy
2. oftenly get jealous. cause thats just gonna hurt you everytime he/she hangout with the opposite sex. thats gonna be so damn BLAH if you're forbid her/him to hangout. hey, you wont him/her to be antisocial, right?
3. oftenly have bad prejudice. try to be positive and trust him/her
4. aren't really fallin for her/him. A long distance relationship is difficult under even the best circumstances, let alone if you aren’t 100 percent committed to the person.
1. cant spare your time although just for one hour for your bf/gf to talk. moreover if you 're be able to not talk to her/him for days! geez thats terrible. you should TALK although you're terribly busy
2. oftenly get jealous. cause thats just gonna hurt you everytime he/she hangout with the opposite sex. thats gonna be so damn BLAH if you're forbid her/him to hangout. hey, you wont him/her to be antisocial, right?
3. oftenly have bad prejudice. try to be positive and trust him/her
4. aren't really fallin for her/him. A long distance relationship is difficult under even the best circumstances, let alone if you aren’t 100 percent committed to the person.
so, do you d a r e to be in a Long Distance Relationship? :p
#1 ♥ = Your Awesome Past Time
something that maybe you can't forget.
but it shouldn't be something that you could bring it back to your present nor your future.
yea, you know about "just forget your past" right? well, actually it's not that "forget".. it refers to "dont ever look back".
but it shouldn't be something that you could bring it back to your present nor your future.
yea, you know about "just forget your past" right? well, actually it's not that "forget".. it refers to "dont ever look back".
♥ ♥ ♥
7 Things That You Should Do About Your Past
1. just keep it on your best box, you could make that box as beautiful as you want.
2. lock it and throw away the key or you could keep the key on your secret place. once again, secret place
3. if you wanna open that box, make sure that someone on your present isnt around you.
4. open it carefully. recall your past, remember it, but dont let that past out of your beautiful box!
5. dont take sooo long to remember it. you just need your little time.
6. if you done, close your box then.
7. lock it!
2. lock it and throw away the key or you could keep the key on your secret place. once again, secret place
3. if you wanna open that box, make sure that someone on your present isnt around you.
4. open it carefully. recall your past, remember it, but dont let that past out of your beautiful box!
5. dont take sooo long to remember it. you just need your little time.
6. if you done, close your box then.
7. lock it!
♥ ♥ ♥
so, hows your feeling now?
better? :)
another random post.. this song is mostly played on my recent playlist. I knw bot this song from him.
FALLING UP
"Falling In Love"
You are my one true love
You are the voice that is so sweet
In everything I do, you bring the best out of me
You are my wings to fly
You are the wind beneath them
I miss you every night, when I close my eyes
You put your feelings down
You stopped your tears you brought me love
You held to my heart
You held with hope to have me near
Sometimes I close my eyes
Sometimes I let my hunger rise
I think of all you are, you are the love of my life
[chorus:]
All of my dreams and my passions
Are in your hands
You reached me in my need
Your rhythm flows under my skin
I need you desperately,
A sweet healing that will begin
You are my one true love
You are the voice that is so sweet
In everything I do, you bring the best out of me
My everything is you
The very motions that I move
And everything with richness
The richness of the peace you bring
[chorus (x3)]
Always, always you are with me
Always, always you are with me
Always, always you are with me
Always, always you are with me
[chorus (x3)]
You are the love of my life
He comes to find you on your knees
heyho blogwatchers..
I have no idea bout what should I post today.. cz im freakin out right now! yeaa feels like such a fool cz I fell asleep in the midle of our conversation.. seems like he kinda mad at me. that's bad! x(
so I decide to post random things..
missing someone isn't about how long it has been since you've seen them or the amount of time since you've talked. its about that very moment when you're doing something and wishing they were right there with you. ~Author Unknown
missing someone isn't about how long it has been since you've seen them or the amount of time since you've talked. its about that very moment when you're doing something and wishing they were right there with you. ~Author Unknown
what greater thing is there for two human souls that to feel that they are joined.. to strengthen each other.. to be at one with each other in silent unspeakable memories. ~George Eliot
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for the record, whn I'm with u, things r lookin better.. for once, evrythn is brighter than the darkness bfore u. I don't care where we are, u're next to me in my head. whenever u're near, I feel like we could do anythin n I think we should.. lets make a scene like the movies in our dreams.
♥ B.A
Today isn't My-Day it's a Bad-Day!
Dari pagi sampe malem ini ga ada bagus-bagusnya!
Pagi,
pas mau berangkat kampus berantem sedikit sama momma. terus kaki gue kepentok.
Sampe kampus,
materi kuliah ngga ada yang ngenakin sampe pulang. 2 dosennya gila peraturan!
First Class: KwN.
Gue disuruh baca materi dan pas gue baca dengan suara gue yang ilang dan butuh banget perjuangan biar suara gue kedengeran jelas, dosen gue malah bilang "kamu nangis?". DANG! Diketawain deh gue sama anak sekelas.
Dan pas gue lagi online colongan saat jam pelajaran, gue baca tweet orang yang buat gue galau kemarin dan bikin gue .......... AARRGHH! Campur-campur! Mau seneng, tapi sedih, takut, nyesel dan agak kepikiran!
Second Class: Operating System.
Kuis dadakan 1 jam, break time. Kuis lagi dengan soal yang sama 1 jam. Dikasih tugas yang ehm..gue ga ngerti.
Selesai 7 jam berkutat dengan materi.
Pulang sore
naik kereta, dan baju gue nyangkut di pintu kereta! Robek di bagian yang @*&#@¥?%*. Ga bisa bayangin kalo keretanya jalan pas baju masih nyangkut.
Malemnya,
"raindrops for the earth and teardrops for me"
huaaaa gue jadi galau abis! Kapan ku punya pacar? Aaaah! Please GOD, give me your miracle! Give me a boyfie!
Dari pagi sampe malem ini ga ada bagus-bagusnya!
Pagi,
pas mau berangkat kampus berantem sedikit sama momma. terus kaki gue kepentok.
Sampe kampus,
materi kuliah ngga ada yang ngenakin sampe pulang. 2 dosennya gila peraturan!
First Class: KwN.
Gue disuruh baca materi dan pas gue baca dengan suara gue yang ilang dan butuh banget perjuangan biar suara gue kedengeran jelas, dosen gue malah bilang "kamu nangis?". DANG! Diketawain deh gue sama anak sekelas.
Dan pas gue lagi online colongan saat jam pelajaran, gue baca tweet orang yang buat gue galau kemarin dan bikin gue .......... AARRGHH! Campur-campur! Mau seneng, tapi sedih, takut, nyesel dan agak kepikiran!
Second Class: Operating System.
Kuis dadakan 1 jam, break time. Kuis lagi dengan soal yang sama 1 jam. Dikasih tugas yang ehm..gue ga ngerti.
Selesai 7 jam berkutat dengan materi.
Pulang sore
naik kereta, dan baju gue nyangkut di pintu kereta! Robek di bagian yang @*&#@¥?%*. Ga bisa bayangin kalo keretanya jalan pas baju masih nyangkut.
Malemnya,
"raindrops for the earth and teardrops for me"
huaaaa gue jadi galau abis! Kapan ku punya pacar? Aaaah! Please GOD, give me your miracle! Give me a boyfie!
kemarin gue lagi galau abis! gimana nggak, tiba-tiba gue keingetan sama seseorang yang bikin perasaan gue langsung kacau! kecampur aduk gitu deh.. he's my ex.. he's the best guy I've ever had! langsung muncul deh semua memori-memori yang pernah gue alamin pas bareng dia. oh my God! kenapa gue harus keingetan lagi sih? ini cuma bikin penyesalan di gue aja ujung-ujungnya. setelah gue tau kenyataan yang .......... NYESEL! tapi gue seneng! kenapa kepo gue muncul disaat yang salah sih? jadi gini kan akibatnya! huhu dari kemarin malem gue sampe ngga bisa tidur cuma gara-gara ini. KEPIKIRAN!
"I've built a wall
not to block anyone out,
but to see who loves me enough
to climb over it."
not to block anyone out,
but to see who loves me enough
to climb over it."
anyway, lotta my friends was in a relationship right now.. either one is Lalita, who two days ago just in a relationship with Trey. previously Anya with Ryan. uhh .. they are perfect.. I'm so jealous.. want to have a boyfriend as well .. hehe
ahh, so remember the annoying guy who had to fill my days for a few days ago.
this song reminds me a lot to you..
I got a lot to say to you
Yeah, I got a lot to say
I noticed your eyes are always glued to me
Keeping them here
And it makes no sense at all
They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
You little spies
They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
You little spies
Crush
Crush
Crush
Crush, crush
(Two, three, four!)
Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one two of us who's counting on
That never happens
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than this
If you want to play it like a game
Well, come on, come on, let's play
Cause I'd rather waste my life pretending
Than have to forget you for one whole minute
They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
You little spies
They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
You little spies
Crush
Crush
Crush
Crush, crush
(Two, three, four!)
Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one two of us who's counting on
That never happens
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than this
Rock and roll, baby
Don't you know that we're all alone now?
I need something to sing about
Rock and roll, hey
Don't you know, baby, we're all alone now?
I need something to sing about
Rock and roll, hey
Don't you know, baby, we're all alone now?
Give me something to sing about
Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one two of us who's counting on
That never happens
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than
No, oh
Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one two of us who's counting on
That never happens
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than
More than this
PARAMORE - (Riot!) crushcrushcrush
now I got a new song to you..
No sir, well I don't wanna be the blame, not anymore.
It's your turn, so take a seat we're settling the final score.
And why do we like to hurt so much?
I can't decide
You have made it harder just to go on
And why, all the possibilities, well I was wrong
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating.
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I wonder, how am I supposed to feel when you're not here.
'Cause I burned every bridge I ever built when you were here.
I still try, holding onto silly things, I never learn
Oh why, all the possibilities I'm sure you've heard.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating (beating)
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
Pain make your way to me, to me.
And I'll always be just so inviting.
If I ever start to think straight,
This heart will start a riot in me,
Let's start, start, hey!
Why do we like to hurt so much?
Oh why do we like to hurt so much?
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa!
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
Now I can't trust myself with anything but this,
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
PARAMORE - That's What You Get
haaah, whatever..
Gue lagi mindahin semua data (yang berantakan abis) di komputer ke laptop gue.
butuh waktu lama buat copy itu semua ke flashdisk gue.
gue sendiri sampe bingung kenapa bisa berantakan BANGET banget data-data gue ini.
gue pilihin satu-satu.
gue delete yang ga penting.
banyaaakk -___-' bikin capek juga. hahaha
terlalu banyak folder-folder, sub-folder-sub-folder dan file-file yang berada di tempat yang ga seharusnya.
haduuhh.. kerja keras dehh gue malem ini.
pas buka satu folder, gue freezing selama beberapa detik.
di folder itu, ada 1 video covering gitu..
YOUR GUARDIAN ANGEL yang dibuat sama Bebbe n 2 tmnnya (hmm.. tmn SMP gue)
gue dapetin video ini dari hasil download di fb. Video ini di tag sama....yea, you'll know..
ga tau iseng atau kenapa, gue play video itu.
(sambil bikin blog ini pun gue masih play video itu)
gue replay terus ampe berkali-kali.
gue suka banget (jadi suka banget, tepatnya) sama lagu ini, yaa karena video ini.
***********
When I see your smile
Tears run down my face
I can't replace
And now that I'm strong
I have figured out
How this world turns cold
and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find
deep inside me
I can be the one
I will never let you fall(let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all(though it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one
I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay, stay
Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
**************
I know we've break up now.. but don't know why, I felt like he sang that song for me.
Oh my god.. what an over confident side of me!
apaan sihh nii gue..
ngaco aja malem-malem..
mind war
myself: huaaaa He's just your X!
Me: I know, so whaatt?
myself: you shouldn't think bout him again!
Me: Why, eh?!
myself: He's just your X!
Me: rrrrr
*********
oke, ganti.
lupakan yang udah lalu.
masih berhubungan sama beresin data.
lagi-lagi gue menemukan sesuatu yang terlupakan.
hahaha
OST. CARDCAPTOR SAKURA!
masih pada inget kan sama kartun yang satu itu?
oke, gue googling dulu yaa..
hmm..
hahaha
jadi nostalgia gini..
lagunya kedegeran ceriaaa banget!
gue dulu suka nyanyiin lagu nya dengan berantakan banget.
secara gue ga ngerti bahasa jepang.
hahahaha
dulu kartun ini diputer sore-sore.
gue nontonnya di rumah tetangga gue.
:)
gue ampe berkhayal kalo gue jadi temennya Sakura yang rambutnya hitam panjang itu.
cantik.
gue lupa namanya _-_
internet gue yang lagi ga mendukung buat googling ini bikin gue stuck!
hahaha
nanti gue cari info dehh kalo internetnya udah pulih. hahaha
see yaa!
